After Mathematics

by Kleenex Girl Wonder

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The sweetest symphony is full of hot despair, But soon enough, your racing mind forgets A dance we had six years ago when we were young and scared, And full of empty promises and threats. So we complain about a place we've never been And argue over pictures in a book It always feels so incomplete Another day, another street Another sweet, uneasy look I used to know just what I'd say if you confronted me How come I can't remember now?
You ask why I write such good songs, I think it's plain to see-- I have to let it out somehow. (Chorus) No one can sing like me And no one can play guitar like me and No one says the things I say And no one else ever feels this way I can't explain myself It would sound much better from someone else But you chose me, and you were wrong And that's why I write such good songs In the time it takes to make one mistake You're up and gone And I'm so tired that I just watch you run You always hide my evidence And clean your snowflake fingerprints Off the loaded barrel of my tongue I can't ignore you anymore But what else can I say It seems absurd to argue now I guess we should have kept in touch Cause when you can't talk, you think too much And it all builds up 'til it all comes out When everything I try to say comes out so foolishly I have no choice except to lie So when I tell you that I hate the things you do to me
I wonder why I even try (Chorus) x 2
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Sometimes, when my dogs are barkin' I don't feel like walkin' But I don't mind So if there's something you ought to say Well then, talk away I've got time I've got nothing but time I can barely sleep at night But there is no relief in sight Oh I still stop at each green light But I drive-- Oh, ain't it great to be alive, well, alright Hold my hand Close my eyes Today, I die Each cruel word is No surprise
 Just say goodbye Cause I gave up a year ago I lost my fighting spirit so I quit I play it cool, I try to be decent But somehow all the pieces Just don't fit And that's just it Oh the days I wasted
Trying to see your face When dreams replaced it I bleed from empty spaces Since my heart got cut-and-pasted Sure I wound up sated, And got up off my feet till the hunger faded A thought so sweet seems obsolete Oh you make fate seem so outdated But be that as it may I still say I will stay with you And if that isn't true We'll make do Somehow, some way Bite my lip Hold my tongue Raise your hand to my face Let's jump this sinking ship And just run To a better place So if there's something you've got to say Please don't walk away I've got time I've got nothing but time
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03:33
I know you see me when you're out on the street You make me feel like I just can't compete You say you're trying but it's hard to believe Have you ever believed in me? I take a walk, I take a second to breathe And any minute I'll be on my knees Cause it's a full-time job to be free What with everything that you see So what do you want from me? I can't take recidivism So hit me with some criticism Look at a rainbow through a prism-- All you see is light Amelia, ameliorate me Ameliorate me, Amelia Amelia, ameliorate me Ameliorate me, Amelia Oh Amelia I started thinking that this must be a dream I know nothing's ever as it seems But I've got an eagle eye for recurring themes And that laugh was a big red flag So now I'm thinking, staring off into space Cause it's so hard to look at your sweet face It's just a memory that I can replace A mark on my piebald past A question that won't be asked There's no time for hesitation Cause I need an emendation But still you shake with trepidation Give me what I need Amelia, ameliorate me Ameliorate me, Amelia Amelia, ameliorate me Ameliorate me, Amelia
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One minute is all it took And now I get it Hey, look, there's a lot of history here Let me tell you I hope your sitting down baby Sorry it took so long But you were far away And I just found your phone number today So I'll spit it out now baby Are you feelin' me? I don't believe your stories You're no more brave than you used to be Oh take me seriously Oh I pretend that I'm naive But it still hurts and I still grieve But while I'm quick to admit that the outlook's bleak I'm pulling in $500 bucks a week And I'm fine with the way things are And I'm in love Oh and there's nothing I would rather do Than anything involving you You're still the one I can't stop thinking of We got lost on the Penna Turnpike The grey moon as bright as a prison searchlight How soon we forget How much it hurt the first time I smiled at the stroke of midnight Cause I knew the trap I'm in is skintight Somehow I know we'll get by Because baby I'm much smarter now Oh I know all your secrets And even they don't get me down You're hard to figure out And even harder to please But that's what I need I know it's hard to believe But just trust me I know how it feels to be seventeen To be young and in love and feel so unclean To just lie in your bed and pray that your eyes won't close Cause heaven only knows How much I dream about you Cause I know what I'd be without you And that's the saddest image I have seen You'll run straight through my scarred cuirass And shatter my heart of glass And how hard I'll laugh as I cash in the insurance policy You say it's obvious, men prefer honesty Well I'm in no mood to defend my immodesty So let's just pretend that I've ended my odyssey Where else can I go? You're the sweetest girl I know I'm pregnant and I'm coming home to you But what can you do?
There's been some indiscretion But who needs an ancient history lesson? I feel good, and you look fetching Oh, as if there's any question
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Why you playing foolish games You know the shit ain't changed You know that I'm the same dude I've always been You wanna act a fool Talking all that bullshit When this is the same damn attitude that drew you in You can run off your mouth cause it's OK But I remember all the shit that you told me I know I know that you got love for me I got love for you You can talk till your voice gets hoarse Your lips get chapped and your tongue gets sore But I don't know what you all worked up for What do you want me to do?
You’re running out of oxygen ‘Cause everybody’s holding their breath You take a story, run with it, And tell it ‘til you beat it to death And you still do it best, ‘Cause you’re easy But I can’t take it much longer, and I’m getting depressed You escape and resist arrest You say you’re obsessed, Then deny you confessed But I must admit, I’m impressed- You believe me. You could learn a lesson from me Why you always messing with me? If you'd act professionally Then things could potentially be alright If you can't say what's on your mind Then I can't afford to waste my time If you wanna look behind and be blind Well that's just fine, let's end it tonight Because you can give me every line in the book Every tried and true time-tested tired old look You can getaway feeling like a small time crook And I'll do what I want to do And if there's nothing else you want to say I'll split Cause the fact of the matter is I ain't your bitch So why you always giving me the bait and switch? Girl, just tell me the truth And now, when everything you ever thought You wanted only gets in the way You run into the audience and Yell at her and tell her to stay And that’s all you say ‘Cause you need her You think it’s out of your hands And you have only to wait For the next little move she’ll make ‘Cause you’re long overdue for a big mistake And you know whose heart it’ll break if you leave her Ain’t a damn thing changed, Rivals get slain and leave deep red blood stains On King James Bibles We still reprimand sinners begging on bent knees For absolution for fucking with Seven Against Thebes We’re big game hunters Who still kill one-hit wonders And big names with flames and box cutters We do it for the Dionysian revelers Then submit it to the critics who applaud the textual exegesis Ain't a damn thing changed, Ain't a damn thing changed. KGW still runs this game, We got it locked and ain't a damn thing changed, motherfucker. Ain't a damn thing changed, Ain't a damn thing changed. You try to copy but it's not the same. We got it locked and ain't a damn thing changed, motherfucker. (Repeat)
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03:43
=SUM(With no melody * (x))
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[BAYOWOLF] After mathematics, what's left? A great thought trapped in your neck While you gasping for breath Catch a flying Papermate pen-stab to the chest I line up MC's from the last to the best Then I blast anyone who ain't mad and obsessed With this rap shit, laugh then I ask who's next? When I lash out, rhymes got panache and finesse Get your cash out, looks like it's time to take the trash out Bring a girl on stage, make her stick her ass out Get her back home, play Dreamcast and pass out Stay out the left lane, I'm tryina take the fast route To bitches, success, fame, and cash and you're gassed off of methane My shit burns fast-- HI OCTANE Only takes a second to recognize I got game The conductor, motherfuckers get off my thought train 7vT Bayowolf got the spot slain
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The sun broke through the mist today And whisked winter away And kissed me on the cheek and said "Don't miss me when I leave this fall, I'll try and give a call When all the trees are weak and dead." So I woke up, and jumped right out of bed Looked at all the books I've never read Took you by the hand and shook my head "No, no, no!" Oh, there's got to be a better way. Everything was simple yesterday. Oh, to think I thought I'd never say "I don't know". Everything you love about life Has its time, its place, and its price And you know some dark summer night
You'll give it up for someone But hey, OK, that's perfectly fine Cause everyone knows it's all about time And I sure try to be careful with mine So go... The road less traveled isn't old and gravelly And that little fact has just baffled me. But there just has to be somewhere That feels like home For ignoble souls who crave tragedy. So when you land feet first don't look around Close your eyes and hear each single sound Then perhaps it'll hit you--"Oh there might just be Someone with romantic tendencies Humming soft oneiric melodies Holding my small hand, and endlessly guiding me..." So if there's a place that we can exist Away from all this meaninglessness I'll do whatever it takes to see this one through. Everything you've ever believed Is far away, and you're finally free To be yourself, or maybe someone new. Cause I've spent so long saying goodbye That I can't even look in your eyes But there's no reason to cry when the sky's so blue Oh and if you think I'm fooling myself Well, who really cares if I truly can't tell But if you don't think that I love you, well, I do. [MATT CUTTER] I'm natural like the flowers and trees Sweet and sour MC The powers that be Demand you pay an hourly fee To holler at me Or keep rappin' on your own Women rackin' up the bills tryin’ to catch me on the phone I keep mackin’-’92 Probe on chrome Sheets satin Spin the beat back and speak Latin Rego, rex sum, deffer than Marlee Matlin Hold the gat like George Patton If you wanna make it happen If you wanna test Patrick Warburton, Don a vest or I’m sure to leave you on the floor hurtin’ For certain [[unintelligible]] American gigolo, singing so rare Bitches swear that I ghostwrote “The Marriage of Figaro” I deserve advanced placement For rhymes so sweet you can taste it Face it, I’m on some JavaScript, All y’all are basic Your claims are baseless I’ve been in the basement for ages Ever since the ancients took a random series of notes And rearranged it Since Michaelangelo made a statue of David Kick like Asics, more cars than Avis, 31 flavors Now I may not be as famous as Martin Amis But if the shit is good, then who gives a fuck what my name is?
The song speaks for itself, I keep to myself Let the records stay six deep on the shelf Like I said, I gives a fuck if my shit doesn’t sell I spit for myself But if you feel it, give me a yell
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The days get longer every year But still the hours fly right by With all the words I need to hear You had to ask me why Oh, everything you say Smacks of relaxed distress That's one thing I won't abide And this won't be the only time I've lied So do you really want an answer?
Maybe you should wait Seasons change and luck runs out But there's no stopping fate So it may seem like it's now or never But all it takes is time You've got your opinions, I've got mine But you'll see That you have had a strange effect on me I can't explain it, but I'm fine Sooner or later you'll realize Everything is easy, baby No one ever tries Oh to scrap this tangled mess Of bitterness and pain and start anew Your voice betrays a strength That cheapens every single thing you do But it's okay-- I've got an eye on you So keep your eyes off me And sooner or later, girl, we'll see What do you know about wasted time? You've got a lot to learn Just say what you've got to say when it's your turn I can't fight the feeling that I've said it all before But no one really listens anymore
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If you knew that people tend to move in patterns Then maybe you could see why it's so good That I'm with you. But then, that really doesn't matter, Cause I want out and you want out And everytime I close my eyes You look like someone else. And lately I'm just not myself Would you agree that life's not really what you make it, But rather, what is made? And though I see something special in your eyes, they seem so vacant And I am afraid that I just can't take it that much longer, But I really don't know why Oh baby let your conscience die Oh if you only knew I had everything I wanted If you only knew I have everything I need yeah
If you only knew I need everything I've got
Then you'd know all I want is you So take your oath... I don't want it, you can keep it Play it for the world. But keep it mind that you can never learn my secrets Because you're just a little girl Oh I've got problems, You've got problems And we've got problems, too. But I can't get away from you. Oh if you knew that there's an end to every story Then there'd be nothing left to say And I think you do, but you stop reading everytime the plot gets boring And pick it up another day. Oh there's no sense in telling you That I have got my doubts Cause that's what love is all about. Oh If you only knew that I don't know what I've got yeah If you only knew that I don't know what to do If you only knew I want everything I can't have Then you'd know all I want is you If I knew that things wouldn't change And if I knew that it sounds so strange To hear everything that I always say In words so sweet and true Oh if I only knew Then I would run away from you But if you only knew I have all I've ever wanted And if you only knew I have everything I need yeah If you only knew I have all I've ever wanted Then you'd know all I need is you
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04:46
Sleep, my little bird, 'Til morning There will be time for concupiscense then Tho my will grows weak from disuse I still have several beliefs to defend I still belive that jealousy is tearing you apart And I still belive that somewhere there's a man in me O, is this my legacy? A string of broken hearts All of this from just a couple harmless fallacies So chalk up one more casualty When the trees grow bright new leaves this spring And when they're shed like tears we'll sing Fitzcarraldo, are you coming home? You don't know the things I know Be still my bleeding heart For a moment I cannot stand one more second like this I am soft and bruised and my spirit flees Though my mouth with each passionate kiss Could it be my memories that fill me with regret?
Could it be my meager melodies are failing me?
Steadily my energy will drive me to forget And I'll see my eager enemies are trailing me Glass half empty or half full You don't know the weight you pull But I don't mean it that way How I miss my right and wrong Put me back where I belong... Shaking me awake you feel that now's the time to exclaim "I need you--now and then, forever--on the next plane!" I need my sleep, you need your time alone to contemplate The cruelty of your fate, and of your most unusual state O, Lord they know not what they do, But they know what not to do. (Repeat)
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about

One of the fun things about these digital re-releases is you can switch the game up. With Smith, I took the skits out. Some of you hurrahed, some of you boohooed, but all of you benefited from the flexible distribution matrix the Internet offers us all.

This album, 7 or 8 years later, still ranks as my favorite of the "first round" of KGW jams (i.e., before Final Battle, which came out as Graham Smith as opposed to KGW), but I think the original tracklisting is wack. So I'm flippin' it.

I stole the album title from Jay-Z via Dr. Dre, or so the Internet would have you believe (actually I believe it, just like I believe Nas wrote Wild Wild West for Will Smith - tip: listen closely to the cadence).

The cover as represented here is what I originally turned into March Records, and I present it unblemish'd as it is hilariously awesome. Tip: while designing the cover, I listened to The Fucking Champs' "IV" on endless repeat.

Enjoy!

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released February 2, 2002

Graham Smith

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